Sunday, June 12, 2005, 2:20 PM
a short time is a long time
Its been a LONG weekend.Really.LONGGG.
Friday - Saw *him at Lido.He walked so fast away.All I saw was his back.Oh.Not forgetting Paul and *his girlfriend.Paul saw me.The girl turned back twice.But I looked elsewhere.Cos yeah.I didn't have the balls to look at her.Went Baby Huey's house and played mahjong.Dad made a big hoo-ha bout it.We quarrelled.FOr the very first time,Dad asked me," Are you a lesbian now?" Things were getting fcuked up.Deja-vu.Its all happenin' again. Why must I see *him again?
**A lil hanky panky.My highs.
Saturday
Riding on a different wavelengths,*She had to butt right in and rock this budding relationship.You said " I know I can't make the rain just stop in the middle of the storm..But would you hold me till the rain goes away?" I thought for a while before I answered "I'll be your perpetual anaesthesia.I'll be there for you if you need me.If you get lost, I'll never let you go.Unless you found someone you love,then I'll let you go."Timing is just not right.If only we could have met at a different time phase.Maybe things would be much different,much better.But maybe we wouldn't have seek solace in each other in the first place then.Maybe..I like you, you like me.There's enough like in the relationship to carry on for a while.But not enough to last.So much negligence on both our parts.Both parties not giving in their all and making that extra effort, it just wouldn't work out. A lot of times, I don't feel you.We hold different perspectives bout relationships.So many issues lying there for quite a while.Its just us who don't wanna face it.But when I'm feeling all alone and lonely, wondering where are you...Leaving it alone wouldn't help. Drastic changes had to be made to complement each other. Neither of us wanna budge and step out of that familiar comfort zone. So I decided to be the one to face it and do the stepping out..**I could get drunk on this lie;oh yes i could.**A short time is a long time when your mind just won't let it go.
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